Top 10 lists get a lot of hits…and it is so easy to come up with 10 excuses as to why I haven’t posted in a few months. Let’s see where I left off. Last time I posted something was late April. I can’t believe how long it has been, and I’m ashamed to say that over the past few months, I thought of much to write about, and yet, I didn’t actually do it. I spent two months on a farm in California. I really enjoyed living in that type of situation – no indoor plumbing, an outdoor kitchen, waking up to the sun and falling asleep by the moon, cooking meals on propane stoves and using coolers as a fridge/freezer…life was good. It was very good. But it was also very hard. At the end of July, we made a decision to head back to Idaho and settle into a ‘normal’ life together…and a month and a half later, I’m finally able to write about it.
Excuse #1: I fell in love. And by in love, I mean IN LOVE…want to spend every moment with this person, and when I’m not with this person, all I want to do is figure out when I will be with this person. So I moved to California to be with him, and then we both moved back together to start our lives here, in Idaho. We’re madly in love. Our biggest arguments revolve around naming our children, the best kind of milk (I like raw, whole milk…he grew up with skim), and whether or not we are going to actually leave the house over the weekend…and we rarely do. It is beautiful, scary, and so incredibly blissful.
Excuse #2: I have adopted two dogs and they need a lot of attention. My boyfriend has two dogs – a Husky and a St. Bernard/Pit Bull mix. They are both energetic, neurotic, and adorable. I spend hours, each day, playing ‘mom’, and loving the crap out of them.
Excuse #3: I didn’t have internet on the farm – so this is a pretty good excuse. I lived about 45 minutes away from town and I had no internet or cell phone service on the farm. I didn’t have the ability to check my emails, Facebook, Instagram, blog, etc. on a daily basis. This, for me, was the biggest adjustment. I spent the past five years with a computer in front of me, or a phone in my pocket, and all of a sudden, I was without. And it was the most freeing experience ever.
Excuse #4: It was summer time. And the weather is beautiful. And life is perfect. And why, in my perfect little life, would I spend time researching and talking about all the things that I am bothered by? I would have rather been outside dancing in the sunshine. So that is what I did.
Excuse #5: I don’t feel like people want to hear my thoughts. How do we stand out in this world today? By sharing our thoughts? Like our thoughts really matter to the billion of people out there, surfing the internet, looking for entertainment. I’m not extremely funny…or intelligent…or doing something amazing…I’m just living my life, so why would someone want to read about that? I’m not sure.
Excuse #6: I didn’t take enough pictures when living on the farm, because I didn’t have a power source to keep my camera battery charged, nor my phone. I read somewhere that blog posts with images get a ginormous amount of hits…so why post if I can’t put an image up? Well…just another excuse.
Excuse #7: The world doesn’t need another “new-age white girl” ranting about all the woes in our society. We have enough people complaining about things and not taking action. I want to take action and change the way things are…not just blog about them and hope that someone else does something. I wanted to do something.
Excuse #8: I started hating social media. I have never really posted the link to my blog on my Facebook – I want strangers reading my blog, not my friends and family. However, now that I’m living in my own little bubble (friendless and with no family close by), I realize that blogging is a much better way of sharing my thoughts, ideas, beliefs, and experiences with those in my life.
Excuse #9: I finally escaped the reality of having too much time in front of a computer, so that last thing I wanted to do was spend my free time in front of a computer. I walked, practiced yoga, played with our dogs, cooked dinners, watered plants, explored the Sierra Nevadas, read, wrote on paper, and loved. I didn’t fit in the time to keep up with my blog…and that is exactly what I needed.
Excuse #10: I wanted to go, for a small time, without sharing my daily doings with the world. The whole thought…”if you didn’t post it, it didn’t happen” started to become too familiar of a sentiment in my life. I felt that if I wasn’t sharing my daily actions that they weren’t worth it. That just isn’t true. Good people do things all the time and receive no recognition…and unfortunately, bad people do things often and the press eat it up and make is socially acceptable. I didn’t want to be a part of that hunger anymore. I wanted to do amazing things just for my self.
But most importantly, the #1 reason I’m back, is because I realized, that all those excuses were just ways of me not doing what I know I love to do – which is to share my experiences with the world, in hopes, that I can connect with likeminded people and to grow as a person. Blogging allows me to do this, as do other things…but this way is easier. And I missed having the ability to share my thoughts with the world (or with no one)…because in the end, it doesn’t matter if a single soul never reads it, what matters is that I wrote it.
A personal life update, quickly…I am the kitchen manager at a local health food store – specializing in the Nourishing Traditions lifestyle/diet. I’ve been working at Nourish Me for just over a month now. I’ve never been happier with a job. I get to make soups, salads, and other goodies for the community. I get to learn about nutrition, fermentation, and sustainability. I fell into this unexpectedly. And it just happens to be the perfect fit.
Peace, love, & good vibrations.